She's in love with the world...

New Journal [friends only]

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 00:52:23 GMT

So I have a new livejournal, this one's friends only:

extemporisation
extemporisation
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Comment. Add. I might add you back, it depends.

rawr

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 23:44:05 GMT

awwr, it's 11:34.

I'm in a bit of a crazy mood. Spoke to Barny earlier, he makes me laugh :) it's all good. A new start for a new year though, I think. There's just too much "relationship" and not enough "love". We need more love. The world needs more love.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I need more Sadie lovin' ;) I miss my giggles. NYE is going to be awesome.

Yeah, so this is a really bitty and random post. Yum.

Dance with me?

p.s. I love Animal Crossing the end

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 01:17:46 GMT

So, here is a promotion for some rating thingy. I hope you enjoy it.

On a more personal note... BITE ME.

The end.

Quiz Stolen from wonderoutloud- She has the most awesome username.

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 14:57:59 GMT

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Meg
2. Megan
3. Meggle

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. melodicmisfit
2. skamelodica
3. meggcup (my current favourite)

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My music taste
2. My intuition
3. My analytical mind

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My sense of humour. I know I'm not funny.
2. My teeth. I hate them. They cause me so much pain! I have a calcium defficiency so I have to have a lot of fillings right now. Even though I brush my teeth properly twice a day.
3. My tummy. I need to do some exercise.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Celtic
2. Norman
3. Anglo-Saxon
[Quite likely to be true, but I did make that up. But still, who isn't nowadays?]

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Dentists
2. Needles
3. Wasps [I go by one rule of thumb- if it hurts, it's scary]

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Tea
2. Music
3. Talking to Barny

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Grey baggy slacks [why is this always my answer? I swear I don't wear the same clothes every day!]
2. A green japanese-style coat thing
3. A huge, fluffy, warm multicoloured scarf

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists (at the moment)):
1. John Mayer
2. King Prawn
3. Voodoo Glow Skulls [I like my older music better. It makes me feel safe]

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. 3x5 - John Mayer
2. Day In Day Out - King Prawn
3. Turn it Off - Solabeat Alliance

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. UNIVERSITY! Rockin'
2. Taking my driving test!
3. A double date! Sadie, Ed, Barny and I! Awesome! With Biffy Clyro! Perfect!!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Laughter [so true]
2. Trust & Trustworthiness
3. The freedom to live your own life as well- go where you want to go, etc

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I know what "prosodic markings" are
2. I'm 5'10" tall
3. I really, really love simultaneous equations

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Hair
2. Height
3. Eyes & Smile

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. French Grammar. I try so hard! No, that's a lie. I just try.
2. Write music :(
3. Work without procrastinating first [Yes!! I work best at 3AM]

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Anything music related [gigging, listening, writing lyrics, dancing]
2. Travelling.
3. Sewing things!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Eat. I'm so hungry for soft cheese on toast with cucumber and mixed herbs...
2. Write some music for my lyrics. I feel so incapable. Because I am.
3. Cuddle Barnaby :) but my mouth is numb, so kissing would go wrong. But at any other time kissing him is... <3

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. English teacher
2. Author [Ooooh! Rebecca! Me too!]
3. Singer in a band. Yeah. Or a Librarian.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Tokyo!
2. Venice!
3. Jamaica!

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Isabelle
2. Millicent
3. Eleanore

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Get married & Have children :)
2. Write a highly-renowned, best-selling novel. [Snap, Becca!]
3. Travel extensively to many beautiful places!

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. chocolatpourmoi
2. sososinvida
3. superhero_no5
&4. baruni_kun, though I know he won't

I hope you all read that and did it yourself *humph*.
So I went to the dentists today, it was fairly traumatic as per usual. I did, however, manage to temporarily get out of having a block injection in the space between my gaw and thus a bottom-row filling by explaining that I wasn't aware that that actual process was going to be happening and I hadn't mentally prepared myself for it. So she laughed, and said I could mentally prepare myself for next march if I felt so inclined. I did.
I still had to have the two on the top done, because she knew I already knew about those. Plus, they don't hurt so much, it's just a bit uncomfortable. The worst part is definately the de-numbing process that occurs while you're in the car on the way home. It makes me squirm.

So now I have to go to work with the little kiddies at school, I only hope there aren't a million today because I feel a bit cranky. I can handle it though, they're generally quite fun!

Oh! I forgot to update before, but Barnys birthday was awesome. I don't think anyone can believe he's twenty [not that he's immature, just that it's a strange age]. We threw a lovely party for him and I think he really enjoyed himself. There was cake, but apparently it wasn't so awesome, though it did have twenty candles and he did blow them all out in one go. Because he's super cool. And really, I just had the best week. He's coming to stay here on friday after the gig he's playing with Fatwax, both of which events I'm really looking forward to! It does mean, however, that I'm going to have to tidy up my room and his room. But that's all ok, it's worth it. And neither are super-messy anyway!

Alright, I'm going to go and eat and not bore you with any more of my day to day trivialities! Enjoy yourselves!

♥

Southampton.. prepare for Meg!

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 14:20:51 GMT

I spent all of yesterday travelling- 11am 'til 5pm. But it was ok because as soon as I got off the train I stumbled upon a Barnaby, waiting to hand me a single red rose. I loved him for all of eternity in that single moment. We had a nice walk back to his Halls where I got changed out of my smelly travelling clothes and into something nice and comfortable, and then we went out for a meal. It was a *huge* plate full of chips and salad and egg for me, I think he had fish and chips. He did. Anyway, I thought I was hungry but BOY I couldn't finish that meal. It was enormous!
After dinner we to see Colour Of Fire and Degrassi, with a local band called "My Mantra" or something. They had spectacular glowing cards. It was awesome.
Colour Of Fire were good, I really liked some songs, I really didn't like others. Doesn't always happen to me, I either like a band or I don't, but these guys have me confused. Degrassi were good too. Scottish. Yay!

It's now the morning time (well, ok, afternoon) and Barny's gone Location Drawing to a Farm and left me here on my lonesome. But I'll be leaving him for a whole day now because I'm going to Brighton tonight and having a look round Sussex Uni tomorrow :) awesome stuff. I'll miss him though. Now that I'm here I want to spend all my time with him <3 ah well!
Tis his birthday on Sunday, he'll be *twenty*. Shocking. I have a few little plans up my sleeve, but I may have to recruit Becs to help me...

I'm leaving here attt... 4:00, because my train's at 4:35 and I need to get my ticket. I know where to go for the train now though so I should be ok. Maybe. Maybe I'll leave at ten to four. I think that's the best bet.

*sigh* I love my Barny ten million. He's special and beautiful :) And I love all you lot too!

♥

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 19:57:01 GMT

You scored as Strawberry Shortcake. Don't stand for that new version crap. If you go shortcake, go shortcake all the way. . .

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Strawberry Shortcake

92%

Voltron

67%

Smurf

50%

Thundercats

50%

Shera

50%

Transformers

42%

Heman

33%

Which 1980's Cartoon Character are you?
created with QuizFarm.com

See, I don't want to be one of those peope who just post quizzes, but really, I don't want to think too much about my life at the moment because if I do I'll finally realise that I'm not happy with it and things will have to change.
The more I ignore it the more likely it is to go away soon. It's probably just a phase I'm going through.

I love Sadie. I'm going to actually miss her next week. She makes me really happy, and I hope she knows. Grrr, seven hours on a train. I know it'll be worth it, but I'm not looking forward to it one bit.
I think I'm going to tidy my room tonight. It always makes me feel better to do something productive. Like my driving lesson today. It wasn't easy, I did a lot and I was tired out after it. But I learnt a lot of stuff and now I feel like a more competent driver. It's awesome.
I got some red moccasins of Sue the other day- they're beautiful! And Judy gave me a proper seventies plastic suitcase, which I'm going to take with me when I go away. It's so cute. I love it :D

Uch, I'm really not posting anything interesting. I never do any more. I think it's because I write so much structured stuff in school everything I want to write now just ends up being crap and poorly structured with little to nothing interesting in.

I don't care. I don't care about anything today.

Yeah, so, if I don't update tomorrow I'll see you all soon. I'm going away for a week! YAAAAY!

yawn

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 22:04:39 GMT


sunshine is love
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Sunshine is love. How true [I had to do that so many times before it gave me something awesome]! So I'm going to bed now, and I shan't be going to school in the morning because I need to be really early for work in the morning and neither parents nor postbus can do that for me. So nice lay in and relaxing working.
Mucho responsibility in work tomorrow though- no Rachael! Meg is in charge! Scary! Wish me luck!

*cuddles*

_{p.s. Barny is love <3 and I hope he gets well soon...}

I said I was cool...

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 18:13:11 GMT

...but I can't lie to you.

Hahaha, "Hey little turnip girl". It's not turnip, it's alternative.
I've had a funny day. I mean, it's sunday, and I was up at nine for an awesome cool two hour driving lesson. My instructor's really cool, actually, he helps and we have conversations. Better than Daryl any day. I've booked my test already, but I shan't be telling anyone when it is, bar Mummy and Daddy. It's not really soon, but it's fairly soon. And I'm sooooo excited :)

I had the hiccups in work, sometimes they were really loud. I was embarassed #-_-# But it didn't last long, I soon moved on to coughing and incessant tapping (sometimes I just can't help it, y'know?).

I can't wait 'til everyone's home from Uni :) It's going to be aaawesome! I really am looking forward to it. But there's a lot more to look forward to between now and then, like possible Oxford interview on the 7th, and going to see Barny on the 8th, then Kent with Dad on the 15th! Dentists on the 14th, but we won't talk about that.
I think I wanna cut my hair again... I don't like it long. I don't think it suits me :( And I like cutting it, it's fun. Barny knows what suits me best, though I know what he'll say when I tell/ask him. I don't knowwww...

Vote!

(a)Meg should cut her hair!
(b)Meg should grow her hair!

Vote now!

I was going to update...

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 23:13:49 GMT

...I can't be bothered now though. It involves drawing lots of pictures on paint and I just... can't... be bothered. I'm going to do some work, finally.

♥

p.s. I need a new icon. Someone make one for me?

Found <3 Nabbed <3 Enjoyed

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 13:34:07 GMT

Do this, children ♥

ABOUT YOU
1. Name:
2. Age:
3. Biggest pet peeve:
4. Where on earth do you live:
5. What makes you happy:
6. What have you been listening to lately:
7. Do you enjoy reading my LJ:
8. If so, why:
9. Interesting fact about you:
10. Are you in love at the moment:
11. Favorite destination:
12. Favorite quote:
13. Favorite time of the year:

RECOMMEND
1. a movie:
2. a book:
3. a band, song or album:

PLUS
1. Tell me one thing you love about me.
2. Tell me two things you love about yourself.
3. Look through the comments, and when you see someone you know, tell them three things you love about them.
4. Do this in your journal so I can tell you what I love about you -- and if you've already done it, tell me so, so that I can go back and give you some love

My day so far has been non-eventful. I tried doing some work, but instead checked my ElJay. I suck so much. I'm going to work soon, which makes me feel better because at least I'll be earning some money. And my job's fun ♥. I really want to quit Londis though... I may still.

I hope everyone's ok, having a rockin' day.

Love & Llamas (rock Llamas for Sadie),

Meg xxx

A quiz

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 22:22:54 GMT

You Are Belle!

Intelligent and kind. Your beauty goes much further than your apperance. Also, you make judgements of people based on their personality and not their looks. Attaining all the knowledge that you can is one of your major goals in life, but you are also a person who can make things happen.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

Yay! My favourite disney princess. If I have a daughter I'm going to call her Isabelle. Nice, random fact there.
Had a tiring couple of days, really. Went to see Dr Faustus in Northampton and went to a Fat Lace night in Carmarthen with Fleurie. Which was pretty fun, apart from the hardcore drum'n'bass. Dancing was still done regardless.
And so now to french grammar online! Woo!

I miss my Barny so, so much <3 Not long 'til the big TWO-OH, though!! Exciting!
And my Jess, I've already procured a few fab presents from her list of things <3 *loves Jess a million*

So goodnight, sleep well all ♥

_{p.s. I love my Barny}

Courtesy of wonderoutloud

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 20:35:05 GMT

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 23.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal...along with these instructions.

I found, "So the myth tried to give people an explaination for something they could not understand".

It's from Sophies World. I still haven't finished that book. I've tried, the second time I got so close and then left it at Alex's. I'll do it one day though... might start again tonight. I'm going to bed now.

Love ♥

Nabbed off moostuuk

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 16:45:40 GMT

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Yeah, so... mazin.

I'm so tired.

Your mission, should you choose to accept it...

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 20:50:05 GMT

The problem with LJ: we all think we are so close, but really we know nothing about each other. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away.

Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you.

[nabbed from superhero_no5- Captain Katie!>

My day started out fairly horrendous- walked for quarter of an hour in sub-zero temperatures to catch the train, only to find out it had been cancelled with no alternatives from Llanwrtyd. The only place the Arriva wankers had bothered to put on a bus from was Llandovery. Not walking distance, let me tell you.
Mums car was frozen up so she didn't think she'd be able to drive me to the bus in Llandovery in time, though she did manage to drive me to the bus in Builth. I stood around for three quarters of an hour in the frikken' cold because the bus was late, and then didn't warm up fully until I saw Barny.
Barny was amazing, as always. It's such a shame we got hardly any time together, but I'll see him all the time over Christmas (apart from when I see my Jesska <3). Anyway- craziness! Barn and I were walking back to the train station when I saw the back of this guys head- and it was one of the guys we met at the Biffy Clyro gig! He didn't recognise us at first, but then he did and it was weird. Especially since he lives in cornwall... and we were in Cardiff. Weird.
We also saw Christoph!! It was sooo cool, we were just wandering around the station and there he was- checking his ticket! He saw Barny and I off too, which was lovely of him. AND... I met Danny and Charlotte from Youth Theatre on the train, because they'd just been to London to see Cake.
Despite all these crazy things, seeing Barny was definitely the thing that made my day <3 He made me an emo CD... I'm curious!

Now, my heels have blisters and my head is sleepy. I'm fairly sure I caught a chill because I can't seem to get warm.

Hope you're all ok <3 love and squeezles xxx ♥

Quizzles. Yeah I rock.

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 21:15:26 GMT

I AM 72% SKA!

Well, maybe I'm trying too hard, maybe I'm not trying hard enough. I shouldn't forget my roots, and remember that punk and reggae wouldn't exist without ska.

Take the SKA test at Fuali.com

I'm so ska. If I'm 72% Ska then I'm the rest Irish/Canadianish/rootsish folk & rock. You knows it. I'm also 100% cool.

*ahem*

I'm so not Emo it's not funny...

I AM 51% EMO!

Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.

Take the EMO test at Fuali.com

Although I am female, and I think that's how come I'm 51%. Just because I've been to shows and CRIED! I'm a girl, so it's ok.
I'm only 27% Goth, but I didn't think that was important.

What is important, though, is that I am 100% Meg and not a collection of quiz results. The same goes for all of you. Obviously you're not 100% Meg, that'd be too much Meg, but you're all 100% you and you don't need to try and be something you're not.
By all means, join all the communities, take all the quizzes, keep up the pretences. At the end of the day, whoever you project yourself as wherever you go you're always going to be you.

Livejournal isn't *real* kids, it's a simulcra. Everything you do with your Lj is just going to get lost in the void that is hyper-reality. And if you hadn't realise this by now then, oh dear.
So less pretence, less drama, less rudeness. When the day is over we all have to go to our beds with the things we;ve read about ourselves in our heads. We know inside that it's not real, that no-one on that "stupid website" knows us at all. But words cut deeper than rationality can protect.

"Just wanna be liked, just wanna be funny. Looks like the joke's on me. So call me captain backfire..."

I'm not so sure where that came from :) Good old Lj and my lovesome communities ♥!

The real world is fun, but I have a lot of work to do. Here is a comprehensive "priority" list:

***Faustus & Color Purple essays for Oxford***
1. Communications Essay #1 "Homer Simpson" for Dr Bernie
2. French grammar (3 excs)
3. Communications Essay #2 "Mass Media and Identity" for Ms Bailey
4. English Faustus Essay for Mrs Firth
5. Start Communications Project: "Brief"
6. French Project 500 Words (by December)
7. French "Translation" Essay

And that is a load of work. I should go and do it...

*skedaddles*

Great Big Nothing

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 21:29:24 GMT

We rule, and we think everyone else rules too!

I'll never find another way to say I love you more each day..

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 17:28:16 GMT

These past couple of days have been pretty scary emotion wise. I've been feeling really overwhelmed, but I gave myself a talking to and I think it put everything in perspective.
Plus, I spent some wonderful time with the beautiful Fleur today! That was fun. I did a small amount of work too :) Go me!

Mmm... Biffy Clyro. I'd just like to put them in a little wooden box and then they'd dance around and sing when I opened it. I'd feed them too, on occassion.

"Lying there on the desk you left a letter
When I touched it, it shivered in my hand
I rub the surface to see your face in the mirror
Translation lost me in a crowded room"
- _{Biffy Clyro - Liberate the Illiterate/A Mong Among Mingers}

I've had Idlewild - Live in a Hiding Place stuck in my head for the past couple of nights, too. I think it's because I've been thinking about Barny a lot more than usual and because he recorded it for me I always sing it when I think of him. Yeah, and it's a pretty song, too. Some songs remind me of Nick, but not that one. And not in an ex-ish way, more in a- "hehe, Nick" way. Never really thought of Nick as a boyfriend, really. I guess he wasn't. He's still a good friend, though. Makes me laugh more than most. I wonder what happened to that band practice... :\ "SCORN!" hehehe... [our band name? Possibly. It was that or "Oak of Guernica"]

I want a bike.

Oooh, look at the time...

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 01:12:13 GMT

I just saw the time, I should probably go to bed. I *am* rather tired. Plus, no-one's on MSN right now, which sucks. It was to be expected, as I'm possibly the only person in the world not to have gone to watch the fireworks. But why bother when you can see them from your bedroom window?

...Yeah, I know I suck. I'm so anti-social ;) I just get cold easily. Ask anyone. I generally sit in French with a big coat on while everyone else is sweltering hot. Also, maybe, just maybe, fireworks will make me miss Barnaby a lot more. I'm not up for extra missing him right now, because I'm far too emotional as it is.
I've been playing with my livejournal. Did some adventurous stuff. Not sure if I like it yet, but we shall see.

The Simpsons was back on TV tonight! It was cool. It's on every night at six for old episodes, and fridays at nine for new ones. I'm pleased. Oh, and I have a new job (as well as my job in Londis) working in the Primary after-school club for two hours tuesday, wednesday and friday. I get a fiver an hour, too, which is an extra £30 a week.

Anyway, Dereks stupid computer game is giving me a headache :( I'm going to bed.

Meg ♥

Re-Did my Livejournal

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 22:12:35 GMT

You should all have a look. Only if you think pictures of cute couples are cool.

Don't look if you hate them.

I'm thinking of getting a new theme altogether. I'm thinking... something along the lines of my friends. Pictures and notes from them, maybe?

That may be a task. Yes.

In school ^_^

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 09:38:14 GMT

I've been helping , a.k.a. KATE!! with her livejournal. Go and see it. I have also been looking up train times for Southampton. Yes, escape. No! Prices... I will go look that up now.
£27.80 supersaver return... gah. I should probably go and get those soon. Maybe if I went from Swansea or something...
I'll check that possibility. Plus, I could drive down. I'll do it later. I can't be bothered right now :( I'll have to ask Mum first what she's doing next monday. I'm sure she's probably doing something. Going to Llandod with Sue.

Nice.

Anyway, take care all. Sorry this update was so pointless.

mmmmm.... rawr.

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 20:30:52 GMT

Megan has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
Megan has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.
One way Megan punishes herself is self directed sarcasm. She is a very sarcastic person. Often this sarcasm and "sharp tongued" behavior is directed at herself.
Megan is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Megan basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach." She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
In reference to Megan's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Megan slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Megan can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Megan has an over-awareness of self. She often feels self-conscious. She fears ridicule, therefore she is careful not to place herself in a position to receive any ridicule. She wonders what people will think if she acts in a certain manner. When encountering a new group of people, Megan may stay on the sidelines until she has the people categorized, or she may behave in a positive attention getting manner to assure people think good thoughts about her from the start. In the sales profession, this self-consciousness is called "call reluctance". They take the word "no" as a personal criticism. Therefore, there is an internal struggle when performing this type of work. Although this person may be a great salesperson, she still feels insecurity. She will perform better if someone else is with her because the fear of ridicule from her peers is far greater than the fear of ridicule from her clients. Many times this type of person becomes a sales trainer, because when she is training, she doesn't have to put herself in a position of being told "no" as often as the salesmen do.
Megan is not facing something going on in her life today. She is deceiving herself about it. Often, Megan's opinion of herself is different than those around her. This trait gives Megan the ability to deny anything that does not agree with her "truth." This trait is not always something negative. It is only a defense mechanism allowing Megan not to face some reality in her life at this time.
Megan will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Megan believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.
Megan is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Megan will be somewhat moody, with lows and highs. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Megan an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Megan is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Megan is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Megan doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. Read more about her emotional expressiveness in the section on emotions and slant.

Life is nice.

"I know a girl...

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 19:00:38 GMT

...she puts the colour inside of my world."
_{I miss Jess so much *cuddles her*}

I had a fairly good day today! I found out that I can book my theory online so I'm going to do that tonight hopefully! Yay! And I got another opticians appointment which means new glasses (amongst other things)! Although while I was procuring it the boys drove off and left me in the middle of Builth in the rain. Hilarious. I got soaked and my feet are still cold.
Saw Nick for a few minutes today, I was going to give him his CD [Biffy Clyro - Vertigo of Bliss] back but he didn't turn up for it in the end. So I still have it, which is good because I still haven't copied it to my computer. And I want to.

I miss my Barny. Not as painfully as I did yesterday, but still miss him a lot. Even though we've been here before it doesn't really make it any easier. It just makes it easier to cope with whatever it is that's not easy. I still haven't been able to put my finger on exactly why I feel so bad sometimes. I mean, to miss someone should be a more whole feeling. It's not like there's any question of breaking up, although when I get really low the thought scares me. Not for long, though, it's best not to dwell on things like that. Beating myself up only makes things harder for us both. And I don't enjoy it too much either. I'm prety happy anyway. We don't need to be joined together for everything to work out fine :) We just need to know we love each other. I have a million good friends to take my mind off it when I can't talk to him or see him anyway!

<3 Jess

"I'm tired of being alone, so hurry up and get here..."

All I have to do now is catch up on my work and then wait as all the Universities reject me left, right and centre. I'm too young for University. Any self-respecting admissions tutor or whatever will see that. I'll get lost, and I'll not make any friends, and I'll miss my bed.

Smoofle. I'm just getting out all my fears. I know I'll be ok. I hope.

Gotta love John Mayer x

...snooze

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 22:14:33 GMT

Yah. I'm so damn happy. I'm so happy I could cry.

Wait... those aren't happy tears, they're full of hurt! And- OH NO! What's that leaking out of my soul? Why... I do believe it's loneliness! And that- that's frustration, isn't it? Someone stem the flow with that plaster made of sleep. No, it won't cure my problem, but it'll stop it showing!

Actually, I'm probably just tired, but I enjoyed writing my little drama.

I know everyone's having a hard time. We're coming up to winter. I guess I'm just getting the winter blues.

I can't decide what to write here. There have been a few versions. I'm basically content. I just wish some things could be different. Right place, wrong time kind of thing.

Anyway, I love you all :) xxx *huggles*

_{It's funny how lonely is next to loved in the mood-list...}

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 21:32:09 GMT

"Everything you wanted me to hide is everything that makes me feel alive...

The cities grow, the rivers flow.. where you are I'll never know. But I'm still here"

Stuffles

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 21:56:36 GMT

Well, I saw Biffy Clyro last wednesday night, and I have to say- they were beautiful. Barn and I hung around for ages afterwards, because he wanted some signatures, and I met Jim (I think the bassist). He was *so* nice. He waved to me ^_^ And I think he enjoyed the fact I live near a place called "Clyro". Met some cool people there too- a really nice girl who was on their street team. I didn't find out her name though. She was cool nonetheless.
The best bit, however, was seeing my darling Barnaby :) It was like we'd never been apart. I owe him loads of monies though :s We kissed to Christophers River. It was wonderful. I love him so much. I can't imagine ever being as happy with anyone else in the way that I am now :)

I'm a ween.

And he sent me and MP3 of him singing Idlewild - Live in a Hiding Place. It's the prettiest thing in the world, second only to him.

Again... stop with the sap.

I'm really happy, and I had a great time. And I'm on my Mum's driving insurance, which means lots of driving for me! Yay!

Love and flowers xxx

"Take me to your blackened sky..."